The Misty Vixen Newsletter | July 2025

Well, this is awkward.

Here I expected to have my primaeval mono-romance if not in hand, then at least close to finish, and yet…I didn’t manage to write a single word for it yet again.

Sorry about that.

A combination of things hit me. The most significant being: I underestimated just how much I was pushing myself in May to get those numbers. That realization coincided with another realization that I had an opportunity to hang out with one of the ladies in my life, so I lost the first week of June to recovery. After that, I decided I wanted to be as focused as I could before starting the mono-romance, so I spent the rest of the month trying to clean up as many of my responsibilities and other projects as I could.

Let’s discuss what came out in June.

Managed to at least get some stuff out. I’m hoping July will be a bit closer to May.

Now, as for what’s coming up…

  • DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE - EPISODE 07 is here!

  • DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE - EPISODE 08 will begin Early Access later this week here!

  • DESPERATE LOVE - PART THREE will come out this month. It’s basically done right now. That’s part of what I was working on and I’m actually in the process of editing it right now.

  • Sometime this month, I will be releasing, for free, a secret project. Back in January I finally watched the live action Ghost in the Shell and it reminded me of an old, old story idea I had, way back in 2015. It was about a combat cyborg and her technician and sex between them. I never even got to the planning stages of it, but it lingered and I decided it would make a nice little mono-romance short. I wrote the first half of it, and then put it aside because January 2025 was one of the worst months of my life. Last month I figured it would make a great bonus short story for those heroes who give me 10$ a month on Patreon. Because it’s unique as compared to what I’ll be releasing in the future, I decided I should make an exception and release it for free after a month. So it will be posted sometime this month. Also, just so nobody gets their hopes up, it is a one-shot.

  • My Primeval Mono-Romance novel will at last take center stage, as, with the exception of two things I need to finish editing and a couple of shorts and DtRH 8, there’s nothing else that needs doing. I think I can finish it this month. In fact, I’m kind of confident I can. However, I no longer trust that confidence, so I’m going to say that it’s going to release in August. Regardless, it will (FOR REAL THIS TIME) begin posting in Early Access on my Patreon. I already have about a quarter of it written from last year, so once I actually sit down and start rereading what I wrote to refamiliarize myself with it, I’ll start posting.

  • I will be writing and posting at least one more After Dark short. Probably a really rough one with Ellen, as I have an idea. I might do another one if there’s time. I have another pretty rough idea for Lakeside Cougars involving Colleen and some mommy roleplay.

  • On the off chance that I do actually finish up my mono-romance, I’ll begin production of Our Own Way 6.

And that’s that. Into July we go.

The Misty Vixen Newsletter | June 2025

Oh boy, May was a VERY productive month. Technically, the most productive month of my entire life. Certainly of my career.

First, let’s discuss what was released.

Like I said, busy month! My previously held record was April 2021 at 126,000 words produced. In May, I managed to write 165,000 words. I had hoped for more, but I began petering out there during the last week, but I figure it’s good enough.

Inversely, while June is also going to be something of a busy month, I’ve been listening to the people in my life telling me I probably need to calm down a little and keep from burning myself out yet again. It’s been…rough, trying to hold back, because after a solid decade of always feeling behind, always feeling like I wasn’t doing enough because I was the one person who inhabited my own body and knew how much more I could be doing…it’s become kind of addictive, being able to just get up and write eight thousand words a day without that much of an issue. Despite that, I can already see a few of the early warning signs of burnout, so things are going to slow down a little next month.

Now, let’s talk about June.

  • DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE EPISODE 07 will begin early access within the next few days right here. Normally I’d already have something up, but I’ve decided Sundays are just off days, no writing, so I’ll get to work next week on it. I’m also going to post another MEANWHILE up there set between Episodes 05 & 06. I should’ve written it last month, but the idea didn’t really occur to me until just yesterday. It’ll be from Diane’s perspective.

  • MY PATREON. So, I kind of fucked up with regards to my Patreon. A while ago, I gave it a little makeover. One of the changes I made was 10$/month Tier. I did this mostly because I noticed there were enough people willingly donating 10$ a month, even though there was no tier, and I mostly wanted to provide something for them. Unfortunately, I proceeded to do a very shitty job. The concept was: bonus shorts written go up there. Unfortunately, I’ve kind of fallen off of bonus shorts in the past year, and I now realize why I was so shitty at producing this extra content now that I know about my ADHD. I tried to combat this by trying to change the nature of the bonus shorts. Initially I began writing some ‘from the harem’ perspective shorts, but I gave the first few away for free just because I was so excited about them, and then I’ve been posting those bonuses for the 3$/month Tier for Down the Rabbit Hole (the only other series to get these bonus shorts since the upgrade so far). And then I came up with After Dark, but…those bonus shorts are SPECIFICALLY things that Patreon has trouble with hosting, so those don’t work either. I’ve honestly been wrestling with this concept for a while, unsure of what to do. I was originally going to just take it down, because I don’t really like paywalling shit, especially not behind 10$ a month. But that seemed unfair to the people who have been and still are signed up to that Tier. I was also somewhat reluctant to begin pouring more effort into a project that’s going to benefit only a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of my fanbase (ALL RESPECT to the fans who are subscribed to that Tier, it’s just that a lifetime of being on the bad side of favoritism has left me with a sour dislike of it). Finally, this is what I’ve settled on: I’ll start producing new content in the form of bonus shorts that take place after the end of already finished series and posting them to the Tier, where they will stay for one month in exclusive early access. They will then move to the 3$/month Tier after one month. I’m not sure if I’ll end up making them free or not. The fact that they can never realistically be recorded and added to audio makes me less likely to try and publish them in any official capacity, and it would be nice to have at least one thing that’s truly exclusive the Patreon, if only because I feel like I should have something that’s a bonus specifically for people who sign up for the Patreon. It’ll take a bit of time to sort it out, but I’m hoping to be able to push out at minimum a new bonus short a month for this Tier. Hopefully this leaves people, if not happy, then satisfied. Sorry again for screwing it up.

  • DESPERATE LOVE. What’s this? Something brand new I haven’t talked about because it’s been in development for a little bit. For the past solid year at least, I’ve been blathering on about how I want to get into mono-romance. I decided to make my primeval mono-romance story my big splash, but I have been entertaining some toe-dipping and two of these projects are manifesting. One I can’t talk about yet, but this one I can. This is not what I’d call a big project. It’s to be coauthored with Lara X. Lust. It will be a trilogy of novellas set in the Desperate Times universe. It’s the story of a man finding a cabin to hide out in as the EMP apocalypse settles across the Earth. He discovers a woman who is sick and in need of help (though reluctant to accept it) already in the cabin. They begin a relationship as they start figuring out how to survive this new world. The novella covers are going to be of the same design as my Down the Rabbit Hole episodes, while the final omnibus will have a proper drawn cover. At the moment, we’re looking at release dates of June 7th, June 21st, and July 5th for each of the individual novellas, with August 5th being the final release date for the omnibus. All of them will have short pre-orders. The omnibus will feature two bonus shorts. I hope you guys enjoy it!

  • PRIMEVAL MONO-ROMANCE. Unfortunately, none of those 165,000 words written went to this project. Between Lakeside Cougars, Down the Rabbit Hole, wrapping up production of Dead Freeze 3, and working on a handful of other projects, specified and unspecified, it just didn’t happen. And, due to the fact that I’m going to have to force myself to slow down a little and I have a few other things yet to wrap up this month, I’m no longer sure if I’ll manage to get this project out before the end of June. I am very, very confident it will for sure be out in July, though. I’m kind of playing it by ear. I’ve got to fire up production of Down the Rabbit Hole Episode 07, finish up production of Desperate Love, try to get a good first bonus short up, and wrap up a few other unspecified projects. Due to how I work now, DtRH 07 can be worked on regularly alongside everything else, so I’ll basically want to wrap up everything but that before I touch the primeval project.

That’s basically it. DtRH Episode 07 begins production, Desperate Love will start releasing, at the very least my Primeval Mono-Romance project will begin posting to early access, and some bonus shorts will hopefully drop!

Sexy Wallpapers

For a while now, I’ve been commissioning wallpapers featuring my casts of ladies posing sexily. I haven’t been able to get as many as I’d like because cover art takes time, and wallpapers take even more time, and my cover artists are almost always working on a cover for me.

That being said, I have enough now that I figured I should collect them somewhere and also update them a little. So I’ve made this page. All the wallpapers are there. If you’re looking for unaltered versions, they still exist on the individual series pages listed under the NAKED LADIES! section of the site.

For those of you who may not know, I get alternate nude versions of all my cover art and post them to my Patreon for the 5$/month Tier. One month after posting, I release them to my website, under the Naked Ladies section, since I don’t really like sectioning off content.

So far, these are the wallpapers I’ve commissioned:

  • OUR OWN WAY

  • MONSTER GIRL INN

  • RAW

  • HAVEN

  • A WARM PLACE

These are the commissions that I intend to seek:

  • LAKESIDE COUGARS

  • OUR OWN WAY (I want to get another one.)

  • DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE

  • GOBLIN GIRLS DO IT BETTER

  • BENEATH THE ASHES

  • LIKE A FINE WINE

  • PARASEXUAL

I probably won’t be getting any of my other non-haremlit series done. The main reason I’m doing Like A Fine Wine and Parasexual, besides still liking them a lot, is that they’re basically haremlit. I’ll likely be getting a wallpaper for every haremlit series I write going forward, as I’ve really enjoyed what’s come out so far.

The Misty Vixen Newsletter | May 2025

Okay, let’s get to it.

That covers last month, now let’s cover this upcoming month, and get the bad news out of the way first…

  • LAKESIDE COUGARS 3 is going to be the final novel in the series (now trilogy). I am sorry. In the beginning, I envisioned Lakeside Cougars as a trilogy, and it remained as such up until I was partway through writing the first sequel. I figured I could make it into four books. Well, after wrapping up LC2 and taking that several month hiatus, when I came back to start planning LC3, I began running into serious problems. Writing, for me at least, is a complicated process, in the sense that a lot of it is cryptic, even to me. I hate explaining this part of the process because it sounds like such bullshit, but so much of how I write is less planning the story and more discovering the story. So much of writing is instinct. I’ve learned to listen to my instincts over the years, because when I don’t, I suffer, and consequently so does the writing. My instincts are telling me: Lakeside Cougars is a trilogy. Trying to extend it beyond that will cause suffering all around. So this will be the last one, and it will be out this month. I’m sorry for having to do this, I know this is always difficult for readers because you always want more, and I know how you feel. There’s so many things I just wanted more for. Hopefully a trilogy will be satisfactory.

  • DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE will have a double release this month. Episode 05 on the first, and then Collection One on the 15th. It will contain the first four episodes and two bonus short stories. It’s going to go up for pre-order on the 8th.

  • Once Lakeside Cougars 3 is wrapped up, I’m going to dive into my Primeval Mono-Romance. That one should be ready to drop in June. I’ll be able to talk about it more in the June Newsletter.

  • With regards to the rest of my schedule for this year, I’ve given it some more thought.

    • DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE is still locked in, although I think once 2026 rolls around, I’m not going to do episodic releases anymore. I long for days where I’m fully caught up and I have nothing else going on and I can just hone my focus on a single title.

    • OUR OWN WAY is also locked in. I know for sure that I have two more novels left in the series, but because of the slice-of-life nature of the story, it’s hard to tell exactly how each book is going to turn out. So we’ll for sure get Our Own Way 6 & 7. Seven kind of feels like a good endpoint, but we’ll see. I do intend to keep writing some shorts, but the nature of a few of them will change, something I will explain below.

    • PRIMEVAL MONO-ROMANCE is locked in. I really want to write this one. The only question here is: will it get a sequel? The thing is, it works well enough as a stand-alone, but there is certainly the potential for more. The thing is, mono-romance is mostly uncharted territory for me. Unfortunately, those who have gone before me have all shown that, almost across the board, a mono-romance novel will earn markedly less than a haremlit novel, which is unfortunately still a concern of mine. It depends heavily on two things: How well the novel does and how strongly my feelings for a sequel are.

    • SHELTER FROM THE STORM is not abandoned, but I have had to make the decision to shelve it for now. What ultimately provoked this decision was, looking over everything, I found that I couldn’t bear to put off working on a new series for another-at minimum-trilogy of novels. Part of me wishes I hadn’t started it, but another part of me is kind of glad I did, even if I had to shelve it, because ideas are kind of like lightning in a bottle. There’s a window of time to capture that initial spark and if it goes, it goes. But I caught the spark, and I can stick it on the shelf for now and come back to it later. Now more than ever I’m reluctant to commit to anything, but once I get done with my new series, I will make a real effort to shift focus to this series.

    • NEW SERIES. Obviously I’m reluctant to give away much this early in the game, but I want to talk about it a little. It will be different from what I normally write in a few ways. Firstly, it will be sci-fi split between slice-of-life and action/adventure. I used to write that a fair amount back in the day, but it’s been years now since I’ve really toyed with it, and I miss sci-fi. Secondly, the protagonist will be a lot more confident from the start. Imagine Gabe or Atticus, but he’s already gone through his arc by the start of the story. I know people tend to like more confident protagonists, and I also know I’ve suffered some for sticking to less confident protagonists, but my experiments with more confident MCs (A Warm Place, Raw, Goblin Girls Do It Better), seems to have bore fruit, so I’m interested in giving it another shot. As for the girls…let’s just say that there will be at least one badass muscle girl and one mature ice queen. I think people will really like this one.

    • AFTER DARK. Okay, this is an idea I’ve been toying around with for a bit and what I was referring to with regards to Our Own Way up above. Over the years, I’ve had ideas for some of my series that are, shall we say, not Amazon-friendly. Specifically: incest and CNC (consensual non-consent aka rape fantasies). Working on the milder CNC scenes for OOW5 made me realize I wanted to write more intense stuff, stuff that almost certainly wouldn’t pass the check on Amazon (despite there being NO rule against it). So all of these ideas have made me realize I want to have a nice little section on my website where I host free scenes/shorts that can be considered ‘soft canon’ for the stories. Basically, they could have happened or they couldn’t have, whichever suits your personal preference. They will not be published anywhere but the website. Also, in case anyone is worrying I’m going to head into weirder/darker territory, you don’t have to. It’s just going to be incest and CNC, and it will be basically in line with everything else I’ve written. Some of the ideas I’ve come up with so far are…

      • Threesome in A Warm Place between Chris, Hannah, and Jessica.

      • Rape fantasy in Haven between David and Ellie.

      • Rape fantasy in Our Own Way between Gabe and Krystal, and Gabe and Liz.

      • Incest in Our Own Way between Gabe and his cousin and also maybe one with his aunt.

    • So yeah, I dunno, these topics have always felt weird to talk about, because they’re taboo, but really unpredictably taboo? Like there’s more universal taboos that make sense, but I don’t really think incest is a bad thing to write about, and yet some people might blow up over it. Same with CNC, although that one seems a lot more common and is more me covering my ass. Which is frustrating, given straight up rape happens in a lot of ‘dark’ romance novels, but whatever. I’ve been promising incest for years now and I’ve always been too busy to really invest in it. I still want to do it, and still intend to do a full-blown haremlit incest series, more than one, but this seems like a nice compromise for the moment, and now that I’m medicated, I’ll be more easily able to carve out some time. So, let me know what you think! I’m probably going to write the CNC short between Gabe/Krystal pretty soon. Also, to reiterate, everything posted in AFTER DARK will be free.

So that’s that! Lakeside Cougars 3 and DtRH Collection One coming this month, and maybe a dirty little short in OOW.

I hope you enjoy!

The Misty Vixen Newsletter | April 2025

It has been quite the month.

As I said last month, I discovered that I have ADHD, specifically combined type, which means I have inattentive AND hyperactive. For the first time ever, last month, I started medication for this and…oh wow.

It has changed everything.

While it hasn’t been a cure-all miracle pill that solved all my problems forever, it’s basically like turning the difficulty down by one level for most everything in my life. I have actually been able to FOCUS on shit. I’ve actually begun carving out a REAL sleep schedule. I’m ACTUALLY TIRED when bedtime rolls around. I can ACTUALLY do some basic exercise pretty much every morning now. Shit I don’t want to do is no longer FUCKING INTOLERABLE. My anxiety and depression have both been severely reigned in. It CLEARLY has helped me write. The sex scenes I’ve written while medicated have felt like some of the best I’ve ever written and some people have been agreeing. (Just wait until you read the Sadie sex scene in Our Own Way 5.)

It hasn’t come without its difficulties, though. There was insomnia in the beginning. There were headaches for weeks. I had to cold turkey both caffeine and weed, as neither play nice with my new medication, and the meds also dehydrate me. It’s kind of screwed with my brain at times as everything is still readjusting, neurochemically speaking, which is still kind of happening. I’ve been crashing pretty regularly about halfway through each day because we’ve learned my initial dose isn’t strong enough, so pretty soon I’m going to up the dose and level out a bit more.

But basically, this was a MAJOR puzzle piece of the solution to what the hell has been wrong with me my entire life. I’d say honestly the biggest thing that it has helped with is the fucking brain fog. Now that I’m properly medicated, it has really put into perspective for me just how hampered I was by brain fog essentially my entire life. Everything is clearer, everything comes easier, and it really pisses me off that ADHD wasn’t EVEN ON THE LIST OF THINGS THAT MIGHT BE WRONG WITH ME until I was in my fucking mid-30s. I fucking ABHOR medicine in America. No one gives a fucking shit about helping you unless they can rip some money out of you and even then, only if they can KEEP ripping money out of you for the rest of your life.

No surprise there.

Okay, let’s talk about writing stuff.

  • DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE | EPISODE 04 is out now!

  • You can see Rain, Chloe, and Brooke nude here!

  • GOBLIN GIRLS DO IT BETTER - THE COMPLETE TRILOGY is out on audio!

  • OUR OWN WAY 5 is coming within the next two weeks. I’m close to wrapping up the actual writing, but I have discovered that my method of editing no longer works and in fact is detrimental. So instead of editing as I go, I’ve now gone back to my original method of writing the whole thing, then editing it at the end, once it’s finished. Which will tack on a couple extra days. I’m going to put OOW5 up for pre-order ideally within the next week. It won’t be a long one, just 5 days, and then it will FINALLY be out.

  • DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE | EPISODE 05 has already begun production and you can read the first chapter here for free, as I’ve decided to start hosting first chapters on just my Patreon (repeat: still for free). Unlike the others, this one is going up for pre-order near the end of the month. I’ve been discussing a certain aspect of Amazon with a few other authors and I want to use this pre-order as an experiment to see if I’m right or not.

  • DEAD FREEZE 3 will probably be out this month.

  • LAKESIDE COUGARS 3 is my next big project. Once OOW5 is wrapped up, I’ll dive into that. Ideally, I will have it out in mid-May.

  • DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE will have audio! Contract is signed. How it’s going to work is that I’ll be releasing collections of four bundled episodes, and the audiobooks will be paired with those. The first collection drops May 15th in ebook, and then ideally the audiobook will come in June.

  • MY RELEASE SCHEDULE: When I wrote this near the beginning of the year, I was in a very different place. I wrote it from a place of, as contradictory as it sounds, hopeless hope. Or perhaps hoping against hope. Something I’ve come to realize is that there is absolutely an ADHD Demarcation Line. Essentially, plans you made before you get medicated for ADHD don’t quite make sense to you after you’ve gotten medicated. I’ve begun realizing this as I’ve written DtRH and OOW. Looking back over plans I made for OOW5 after I’ve gotten medicated has been a bizarre experience. Things I thought would make sense didn’t quite, and better or different ideas have come to me. This is somewhat true for my scheduling as well. Plus, the fact that I spent the first two months of this year in almost as dark a hole emotionally and mentally as I have ever been in my life REALLY threw the plan off already. So basically, I’m going to need to change some shit. I’m not sure what yet, as clearly the dust is not yet finished settling in my head. I can at least say that Down the Rabbit Hole Episodes will continue along as they have, each one released at the first of each month through the whole of 2025. Beyond that…I need to think a bit longer. I’m REALLY hoping this will be the end to my inconsistency.

Anyway, I’m off to wrap up Our Own Way 5 and keep writing DtRH 5.

Demoness - The Complete Series

 
 

I’ve been batting around what I’m going to do with Demoness for a while now, as I’m sure some of you know.

For those of you who don’t know, a quick history lesson.

I wrote Demoness in Spring 2017. At the time, it was the longest thing I’d written at 33,000 words. It was supposed to be a one-off, but by the time I’d finished it, I realized there was going to have to be more.

In 2018, when I made the switch to novel-length works, my first real full length title was Demoness II, and I could tell I was onto something.

For the next two years, I wrote three additional novels, three short stories, and a mini-series. But through it all, I couldn’t shake the unfortunate reality that while I had big, big plans for this series, it would ultimately be doomed to failure because a series is only as good as its first book. What good is writing a fucking kickass book six if no one read book one?

I tried to correct this by adding an extra 12,000 words to Demoness, but ultimately decided I would have to do a full reboot further down the line. Well…further down the line came and I got busier and busier and ultimately, as I approached 2025, I realized the sad reality was that I no longer cared enough to write a full-blown reboot. And so this is my solution.

I have collected every scrap written for this series, some four hundred thousand words, and put it all into a single collection. There isn’t anything new in here, save some updated formatting.

I hope this clears things up. The whole collection is in the KU and also 99 cents. I hope you enjoy!

The Misty Vixen Newsletter | March 2025

This will be short.

Things are definitely calmer, and my problems have mostly calmed down, (though they haven’t been solved). However, one really big thing that’s happened in all of this is that I finally decided to investigate whether or not I have ADHD and…I do, apparently. Which explains too much about my life and I’m angry that it hasn’t come up before now. I’m not out of the woods yet, but going to try some medication soon. I imagine some people are probably calling bullshit, because how could I write like ninety novels and have ADHD? Well…let’s just say, you all have no idea what I sacrificed to make those ninety novels. Suffice to say, the seas of my life are not yet calm.

But oh wow, if things go the way they’re supposed to, this might solve my problems and I might suddenly be able to start producing novels at a faster and more reasonable pace.

In terms of practical news, this is what I’ve got:

  • Down the Rabbit Hole | Episode 03 is here.

  • I’ll begin writing Episode 04 in about a week.

  • I’m trying to get work done for Our Own Way 5 primarily right now, but I am still really struggling about half the time, so it’s been slow going, and that looks to continue.

  • Life has been very busy on Lara’s end too, so Dead Freeze 3 is taking a bit longer.

That’s it I’m afraid. I’m very much hoping that this month will bring better news.

Our Own Way 5 Preview

At long last, I have begun posting Our Own Way 5.

I am going to be painfully honest, as I always try to be, and say that this will not be being updated in a routine fashion, and that I am operating at…less than optimal writing/creative capacity right now, and I really, really wanted to put OOW5 on hold because I do not feel up to this, but ultimately I have decided I’ve put it on hold for too long as it is, and I need to get the ball rolling on it.

So…here it is.

You can read more here.

Gabe’s life was about to change.

Again.

This time, at least, he felt a lot more confident about said shift.

They were almost to Krystal and Liz’s place.

Gabe realized that it was completely silent inside the car. On the heels of that realization was a second one: it had been for a couple minutes now.

He looked around. Ellen was in the passenger’s seat. She was looking at him and smiling a somewhat curious smile. He wasn’t quite sure how to interpret it. He glanced in the rearview and saw Holly back there smiling a similar smile.

Maybe it was because Chloe hadn’t joined them for this little roadtrip. She was back home, unhappy but unable to get out of obligations related to her family.

They were getting suspicious. They knew something was up, but he doubted they truly realized the situation. So far, she’d managed to keep them from her old apartment and was still more or less keeping them in the dark.

He knew it wouldn’t last.

Honestly, at some point after they got moved and settled, he had decided he was going to confront her about it. Not because she wasn’t moving at a pace he was happy with, but because it was becoming obvious that she was just avoiding the issue.

A habit they were all going to have to kick.

“Is everything all right?” he asked, returning his attention firmly to the highway.

Yep, just in time too, there was the exit. He hit the blinker and took it.

“Everything’s just fine,” Ellen murmured serenely.

“Are you horny or…?”

“I mean, kind of, but that’s not what’s going on.”

“So something is going on?” he asked.

“Yes. Well,” she glanced back to Holly, “I mean, I think we’re on the same wavelength.”

“I think so, too,” Holly agreed.

“And what wavelength is that?”

“You...are different. In a good way,” Ellen said after a slight, measuring hesitation.

“Like, today?”

“Yes. But also no. You’ve been changing ever since I met you. Sometimes in little ways, sometimes in larger ways. And I suppose now it’s suddenly just very obvious.”

“Do you feel the same way?” he asked, again glancing in the rearview.

“Yes,” Holly replied.

“Interesting.” He thought about it, turning onto another street and bringing them ever closer to their destination.

He waited for one of them to say something else, ask something else, but the silence descended again. The only sound was that of the vehicle and the lo-fi gently playing.

Gabe considered their assertion.

He supposed they had a point: he had changed. He felt different. Ellen was right in that he’d been changing since they had met, and for a couple of months before that, but the first month of the year, he was realizing, had been particularly transformative.

Which was weird, because from his perspective, it had been a quiet month. Busy, sure, but all little stuff. They had big things on the horizon, but they hadn’t really addressed any of them yet beyond some basic preliminary work.

But hadn’t a lot been going on, under the surface?

Certainly he looked different enough right now.

He’d gotten his hair cut in a way he’d often thought of but never tried because he thought he’d look stupid. He’d had them more or less buzz the sides and back of his head and shorten whatever was left. It seemed like a simple cut and honestly it was, but hair was always kind of a blackbox to him. It felt so easy to fuck up without even knowing why or how.

But he had been more or less satisfied with the results, and the others…

Really liked it.

So that was pretty nice.

He’d also realized abruptly this morning that he actually had some definition to his body. Nothing crazy and you did kind of have to really look for it to see it, but he had double-checked a photo of him and Ellen naked they’d taken near the beginning of the relationship and realized that, yeah, he had the tiniest bit of muscle definition now.

Apparently, he had been literally screwing his way to physical fitness.

He doubted it’d provide much more in the way of definition–even with Krystal and especially Liz entering his life–but it provided a shitload of motivation to actually work out. Maybe with Liz here he could stick to it.

But more than that, he felt different.

He just felt...calmer. More in control. His anxiety had been bleeding away and he’d not even realized it. But the girls had. Basically as soon as they had paid, Ellen demanded they go home and fuck immediately.

And so had Chloe and Holly.

That had been a very intense day.

He’d also been listening to them more about how he dressed. They’d gone clothes shopping, like made a day out of it at the mall, a few days ago and so he had a lot more clothes that apparently fit him and sat better on his frame.

Apparently clothes were everything. Well, clothes and hair.

When he’d seen himself in the mirror with his new haircut and new clothes for the first time, his initial reaction had been something like shock.

He almost hadn’t recognized himself.

Looking back, he realized suddenly that it wasn’t just the clothes, the hair, or the barely visible musculature.

It was more just how he…

Was.

It was hard to describe. He thought that perhaps the best phrase would be ‘how he carried himself’. It was different.

He was still figuring this whole thing out.

But right now that didn’t matter. What mattered in this moment was that it was actually a pretty decent day out for the first of February and he was on his way to tip over the first domino in the line of actions that was really beginning to build his new life.

Their new lives.

He saw the apartment complex up ahead and grinned as he pulled into the parking lot.


…


Gabe knocked on the door, though he wasn’t sure why he bothered.

Especially when he heard a shouted: “Just walk in, dipshit!”

He laughed and opened the door. Leading the others into the apartment, he found a disaster zone. The living room was in absolute disarray. Boxes, clothes, dishes, furniture, trash, books, and a completely random assortment of other things lay scattered in a landscape of chaos.

“I know, I know!” Krystal said, facing away from them, down on her knees in a pair of pink jogging shorts and a tanktop, sorting through the mess. “It’s been a busy morning and I promise I’m not going to be this fucking messy–”

Her next word died in her throat as she turned around to look at them. Gabe heard a shutter snap as someone took a picture, and he was very glad, because the look on Krystal’s face was one he was going to want to look back at several times in his life, he was sure.

She stared at him in open shock, her eyes wide, her mouth open but locked into the shape of the next syllable she had been to speak.

And it was very authentic, he could tell that much.

“Oh my God,” she whispered, and then she clumsily got to her feet. “Liz! Liz! Get out here!”

“Oh fuck what’s happening now!?” Liz called from deeper in the apartment. They heard her rapidly approaching. “Did you hurt yourself or some–”

She stepped out into the living room, saw Gabe, and had a milder version of the same reaction.

Another shutter snap sounded and Ellen snorted softly. Gabe was sorely tempted to ask if they’d been told to react like this, because this was a little ridiculous. Both of them knew he’d gotten a hair cut and some new attire, and he had been prepared to send some pics, but Ellen had suddenly told him not to, that she wanted it to be a surprise.

And apparently she was right to do that.

“Holy. Fuck,” Krystal whispered finally.

“Come on, are you being serious right now?” he asked finally, unable to keep it in.

“Yes,” Krystal said flatly.

“You look...different,” Liz murmured.

“Is it really that different?” Gabe asked, looking down at himself. This still felt surreal, even with his newfound confidence.

“Apparently. Also, you have to remember that we’ve been apart for three weeks now,” Liz replied. “And missing you.”

“A lot,” Krystal growled.

“This is still weird,” he said.

“What? Having a pair of girlfriends missing you?” Ellen murmured with a small grin. She looked as pleased as could be about all this.

In fact, when he looked back at her, he would have sworn she was showing him off.

Well...hadn’t he done something similar with her? With Holly? With Chloe? With Krystal? Hell, even with Liz a little? And wouldn’t there be more?

Was it so bad?

No, he decided, so long as everyone was cool with it. And he was quite cool with it.

It felt strange but good to finally, finally be on the ‘Attractive’ side of the scale. Not that he truly believed he was attractive, but he’d given up that debate by now. He thought he was fuckugly, but reality had pretty firmly proved him wrong.

“So this works for you?” Gabe asked, trying to get control of the situation again.

Krystal let out a small, distracted chuckle. “Yes. Yes, it does.” She looked suddenly at Liz. “I…”

Liz sighed heavily. “Yeah, it’s fine. I’m not going to torture you.”

“What’s going on?” Gabe asked as Krystal began making a beeline for him with an almost comical look of determination.

“Krystal needs to fuck you and I want to, too, but something got mixed up with my birth control, so I ran out yesterday, and I’m getting more today, but...I’m not going to risk it,” Liz explained.

“Oh.” Krystal had grabbed his wrist and begun pulling him towards the bedroom, but he stopped. She made an unhappy sound and tugged on his arm. “Just wait,” he said, and she sighed but held her peace. Though she was getting very fidgety. He looked at Liz. “We can still absolutely do sexy things together, or at the very least Krystal can eat you while I pound her from behind.”

“That...is a very good point,” Liz murmured, a smile slowly spreading across her beautiful face.

“I am going to die if I don’t fuck him,” Krystal growled.

Liz laughed. “Well, we can’t have that, now can we?”

And she took his other arm and both of them led him to their bedroom.

The Misty Vixen Newsletter | February 2025

I was not ready for January.

So, that phrase I mentioned earlier, about how if you don’t make time for your body to rest, then your body will make time. And I think that’s what happened. I feel like I more or less got jumped at the start of the year. I’ve been having completely new medical problems, combined with intensifying emotional problems. They were pretty intense and frightening at the start of the year, but they’ve at least calmed down a bit. I’m presently trying to navigate the medical industrial complex, which is always a difficult, irritating, and at times terrifying prospect.

It does not help that, for obvious reasons, life in general just got significantly worse for most in my country. That’s stressing me beyond anything else, honestly. I’ve never been an optimist but Jesus Christ is it already so bad here.

But hope is the logical option, so I hope, and I continue to do the only thing I really know how: write.

That being said, clearly I made the wrong call about trying to set a schedule for myself this year. I genuinely didn’t think I was going to run into something like this. This is the equivalent of falling down immediately at the start of a race, faceplanting into dogshit, and then exploding outright.

The good news is that Down the Rabbit Hole Episode 02 is out. I’ve also got the cover art for the first collection and it features Chloe and Rain. And the next one, which features Brooke, is being worked on. I’ve begun writing Episode 03 and it’ll be posted to my Patreon and should still be on time for March 1st. The rest of the good news is that I am finally actively working on Our Own Way 5. I’ve gotten the first couple of chapters written and I’m trying to make more regular progress. The problem is that writing is really difficult for me right now. Like this has been really disruptive to my life in general.

I’ve finished my portion of the work on Dead Freeze 3 and passed it off to Lara, (in other words, I admitted that I wasn’t going to be able to handle a similar workload this time around). Ideally it should be out sometime this month, but it might be not come out until March.

Um…good luck to us all.