It has been quite the month.
As I said last month, I discovered that I have ADHD, specifically combined type, which means I have inattentive AND hyperactive. For the first time ever, last month, I started medication for this and…oh wow.
It has changed everything.
While it hasn’t been a cure-all miracle pill that solved all my problems forever, it’s basically like turning the difficulty down by one level for most everything in my life. I have actually been able to FOCUS on shit. I’ve actually begun carving out a REAL sleep schedule. I’m ACTUALLY TIRED when bedtime rolls around. I can ACTUALLY do some basic exercise pretty much every morning now. Shit I don’t want to do is no longer FUCKING INTOLERABLE. My anxiety and depression have both been severely reigned in. It CLEARLY has helped me write. The sex scenes I’ve written while medicated have felt like some of the best I’ve ever written and some people have been agreeing. (Just wait until you read the Sadie sex scene in Our Own Way 5.)
It hasn’t come without its difficulties, though. There was insomnia in the beginning. There were headaches for weeks. I had to cold turkey both caffeine and weed, as neither play nice with my new medication, and the meds also dehydrate me. It’s kind of screwed with my brain at times as everything is still readjusting, neurochemically speaking, which is still kind of happening. I’ve been crashing pretty regularly about halfway through each day because we’ve learned my initial dose isn’t strong enough, so pretty soon I’m going to up the dose and level out a bit more.
But basically, this was a MAJOR puzzle piece of the solution to what the hell has been wrong with me my entire life. I’d say honestly the biggest thing that it has helped with is the fucking brain fog. Now that I’m properly medicated, it has really put into perspective for me just how hampered I was by brain fog essentially my entire life. Everything is clearer, everything comes easier, and it really pisses me off that ADHD wasn’t EVEN ON THE LIST OF THINGS THAT MIGHT BE WRONG WITH ME until I was in my fucking mid-30s. I fucking ABHOR medicine in America. No one gives a fucking shit about helping you unless they can rip some money out of you and even then, only if they can KEEP ripping money out of you for the rest of your life.
No surprise there.
Okay, let’s talk about writing stuff.
GOBLIN GIRLS DO IT BETTER - THE COMPLETE TRILOGY is out on audio!
OUR OWN WAY 5 is coming within the next two weeks. I’m close to wrapping up the actual writing, but I have discovered that my method of editing no longer works and in fact is detrimental. So instead of editing as I go, I’ve now gone back to my original method of writing the whole thing, then editing it at the end, once it’s finished. Which will tack on a couple extra days. I’m going to put OOW5 up for pre-order ideally within the next week. It won’t be a long one, just 5 days, and then it will FINALLY be out.
DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE | EPISODE 05 has already begun production and you can read the first chapter here for free, as I’ve decided to start hosting first chapters on just my Patreon (repeat: still for free). Unlike the others, this one is going up for pre-order near the end of the month. I’ve been discussing a certain aspect of Amazon with a few other authors and I want to use this pre-order as an experiment to see if I’m right or not.
DEAD FREEZE 3 will probably be out this month.
LAKESIDE COUGARS 3 is my next big project. Once OOW5 is wrapped up, I’ll dive into that. Ideally, I will have it out in mid-May.
DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE will have audio! Contract is signed. How it’s going to work is that I’ll be releasing collections of four bundled episodes, and the audiobooks will be paired with those. The first collection drops May 15th in ebook, and then ideally the audiobook will come in June.
MY RELEASE SCHEDULE: When I wrote this near the beginning of the year, I was in a very different place. I wrote it from a place of, as contradictory as it sounds, hopeless hope. Or perhaps hoping against hope. Something I’ve come to realize is that there is absolutely an ADHD Demarcation Line. Essentially, plans you made before you get medicated for ADHD don’t quite make sense to you after you’ve gotten medicated. I’ve begun realizing this as I’ve written DtRH and OOW. Looking back over plans I made for OOW5 after I’ve gotten medicated has been a bizarre experience. Things I thought would make sense didn’t quite, and better or different ideas have come to me. This is somewhat true for my scheduling as well. Plus, the fact that I spent the first two months of this year in almost as dark a hole emotionally and mentally as I have ever been in my life REALLY threw the plan off already. So basically, I’m going to need to change some shit. I’m not sure what yet, as clearly the dust is not yet finished settling in my head. I can at least say that Down the Rabbit Hole Episodes will continue along as they have, each one released at the first of each month through the whole of 2025. Beyond that…I need to think a bit longer. I’m REALLY hoping this will be the end to my inconsistency.
Anyway, I’m off to wrap up Our Own Way 5 and keep writing DtRH 5.